Friday, March 08, 2013

ME - I'm INFJ Personality...

Part of it...

The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and directive and introverted in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counselors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people.

Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.

Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another’s emotions or intentions – good or evil – even before that person is conscious of them. This “mind-reading” can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others’ feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance.

IDEALIST NFs, being ABSTRACT in communicating and COOPERATIVE in implementing goals, can become highly skilled in DIPLOMATIC INTEGRATION. Thus their most practiced and developed intelligent operations are usually teaching and counseling (NFJ mentoring), or conferring and tutoring (NFP advocating). And they would if they could be sages in one of these forms of social development. The Idealist temperament have an instinct for interpersonal integration, learn ethics with ever increasing zeal, sometimes become diplomatic leaders, and often speak interpretively and metaphorically of the abstract world of their imagination.

They are proud of themselves in the degree they are empathic in action, respect themselves in the degree they are benevolent, and feel confident of themselves in the degree they are authentic. Idealist types search for their unique identity, hunger for deep and meaningful relationships, wish for a little romance each day, trust their intuitive feelings implicitly, aspire for profundity. This is the “Identity Seeking Personality” – credulous about the future, mystical about the past, and their preferred time and place are the future and the pathway.  Educationally they go for the humanities, avocationally for ethics, and vocationally for personnel work.

Social relationships:  In their family interactions they strive for mutuality, provide spiritual intimacy for the mates, opportunity for fantasy for their children, and for themselves continuous self-renewal.  Idealists do not abound, being as few as 8% and no more than 10% of the population.

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

Asking for Help...

I started a Crowdfunding page after listening to a TED talk that reminded me that it is perfectly OK to ask others for help... so here's my link:

Basically I've been struggling with bills since March of last year... that's right, it's almost been a year already since the surgery.  Well, another bill popped up that is nearly $2000 so I thought I would jump on Crowdfunding (aka "GoFundMe") to ask for help.  I do have an Angel Level reward, for those who donate $50 -- so, please take a moment to consider if you would be able to donate at that level, or even if you can only donate $5... every little bit will be deeply appreciated and will help me pay off this bill.

Thank you to all those who are able to assist with this project...

Sunday, March 03, 2013

Winter Traveling

It started on Saturday February 23rd... traveling toward Oklahoma for my great-nephew's 2nd birthday. It had already snowed in Colorado, but the roads were safe and easy to travel... it took me just at 8 hours to get into Woodward, Oklahoma.

It was good to see family after the long trip; they had settled on a restaurant to have dinner - I was hoping that since it was Oklahoma that *steaks* would be an absolute ease to find great. I was mistaken - Blue Water Grill does not deliver the quality if food that I expected for the price they charge... sorely disappointed in them. I'll be submitting a Yelp review to reflect that as well.

Sunday was all about the birthday boy ... the night before we had gone to the local Wal-Mart for last minute items... holy cow - you'd have thought there was going to be an apocalypse - the shelves were rummaged with nearly nothing left, especially the basics: bread, lunch meats, chips, sweets (ok, a little more of the "okie" staples).

The house was decorated & the cake was delivered by Grandma since she was at the location where it was being done ... and since she lives like two houses away. Convenient! The cake-maker wasn't confident enough to do the writing that was requested... bummer... but the Momma took her supplies & managed a number 2 onto the cake to indicate the son's 2nd birthday. People arrived over time; cake and punch was had by all... gifts were opened... and eventually the people headed out. The day was so beautiful... it was so hard to imagine that snow was on its way soon.

And the snow it did indeed come down so very much - steadily, heavily! My sister, her grand-daughter, her daughter (not-the-momma of the grand) & I stayed the night at Northwest Inn. They had a pool so that's the reason for staying there... so that the grand-daughter could go swimming with her beloved Nanna. It is so cute just how much she loves her Nanna - my sister is blessed!

We woke in the morning to the realization of just how much the snow meant to stay... Monday was pretty much going to be at the Inn... the snow was still coming down & not looking to let up at all. We had a great continental breakfast - big kudos to them for that! Thank goodness for the indoor pool - made for great entertainment for the little one!

Tuesday turned into the same thing... the roads were closed within a good 50-mile or so radius around the "armpit" if Oklahoma ... Woodward was snow-packed! The tenants of the Inn were all showing "cabin-fever" - I know I was certainly not wanting to stay inside, but did not want to be out in the mess either. This was the worst snow-in I'd experienced since moving back to the Midwest.

Luckily, Wednesday showed enough clearance that we decided to head out - this snowstorm totally messed with the original plans of me bringing my sister back to Colorado to spend the week with me... now, we head back to her home to spend another day together. We stopped in Tulsa to an impromptu dinner visit with my sister's boyfriend. Finally... a delicious steak!!! Served with baked potatoes & a variety of veggies! Also served with tastes wines! For the first time, I finally watched Game of Thrones... definitely want to go back to the first season & catch up on this one.

Thursday had a gentle start... we headed off to Monkey Island ... nothing planned, but definitely enjoying our time together. We stopped at a cute little art studio on Monkey Island called Cloudpants - she bought me a lovely bracelet! And then we stopped at the restaurant right next door for a snack of their guacamole to go! Yum!

My original plan for Friday was to travel back again... well, that plan changed, too... we received phone calls telling us about our younger brother having a heart attack... so emotionally challenging to hear about this... the news was still good tho... they were able to get him air-lifted to the hospital in Amarillo. He received a catheter & they were able to stabilize him and he was sent home.

So... Saturday was my traveling back day... I was able to get out early - road-tripping alone that far... not so fun. One extremely sad event was on a road that I normally wouldn't have been on -- I took the wrong exit getting myself on I-35 when I needed to get onto Hwy 135. This re-route put me behind a semi-truck that seemed at one point determined to pass another car... it did so at the wrong time, and startled a black cat on the side of the road that darted out right into my path... I had absolutely no time to brake, swerve or anything... my heart broke... I killed a kitty cat. :( Ugh!

So, 11hours and 11minutes after the start... I was finally home... well, that's the "travel time" that the car logged... I had stops along the way that made the trip actually 12 hours long. But I'd never been so happy to be home and see my sweet little Mr. Ted kitty ... his purr was resoundingly loud!

Trip was long...

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Quotes Being Used for an Agenda...

I've seen this quote being posted around to promote the pro-gun "freedom" perspective: *I prefer dangerous freedom over peaceful slavery* (literal translation from Latin phrase)...

Here is the context in which that quote was originally written: 

"Societies exist under three forms sufficiently distinguishable. 1) Without government, as among our Indians. 2) Under governments wherein the will of every one has a just influence, as is the case in England in a slight degree, and in our states in a great one. 3) Under governments of force: as is the case in all other monarchies and in most of the other republics. To have an idea of the curse of existence under these last, they must be seen; it is a government of wolves over sheep. It is a problem, not clear in my mind, that the 1st condition is not the best. But I believe it to be inconsistent with any great degree of population. The 2nd state has a great deal of good in it. The mass of mankind under that enjoys a precious degree of liberty and happiness. It has its evils, too: the principal of which is the turbulence to which it is subject. But weigh this against the oppressions of monarchy, and it becomes nothing. *Malo periculosam, libertatem quam quietam servitutem.* Even this evil is productive of good. It prevents the degeneracy of government, and nourishes a general attention to the public affairs. I hold it, that a little rebellion now and then is a good thing and as necessary in the political world as storms are in the physical world." - Thomas Jefferson to James Madison, January 30, 1787.

The topic at hand was Societies and the involvement of types of governments.  The phrase has also been translated from its Latin form by some to mean, "I prefer the tumult of liberty to the quiet of servitude."  The word "tumult" to mean:  confusion, disorder.  And "servitude" to mean: a condition in which one lacks liberty especially to determine one's course of action or way of life. 

So to me, what this Latin phrase was imparting in the context in which it was given is... "I prefer the chaos that comes from the freedom of a pursuit of liberty and justice for all, over the lack of liberty that would in turn NOT allow me to determine my own way of life" -- I prefer this non-monarchical government that may not be the best or most ideal at all times, over a complete and rigid set of defined rules (absolute control) wherein I would never know what it is like to live my life the way my inner passions would choose to try to bloom... mistakes and all.

Mistakes and all.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Cooking Ingredients Suggestions...

Feta Prosciutto Scramble with White Yam Hash
Browns and spinach side salad.
So ... I have this new idea for something fun that would be engaging my friends/family/network...  here's the concept:

"I'll Cook with That" - kind of like a surprise ingredients situation ... most of my close friends know that I absolutely love watching The Food Network and one of my favorite shows is "Chopped" - the concept there is that the Chefs don't know what their ingredients are until they open the box and then they get a certain amount of time to create/cook/present the dish.  Well, I'm not going that tight on the idea to match Chopped, but I am going to open up to ingredient ideas and then on my next payday, I will try to purchase the ingredients suggested and with the supplies in my own kitchen... I will create a dinner for myself from the ingredients with as much creativity as possible.  As the list grows I will get a Google Calendar up and running with the suggestions, the person who suggested it and the day of the week I will try to prepare the meal.

This will be fun!  I like the idea of taking ideas from outsiders and then blogging about the process - taking pictures ... and if at all possible, maybe even take some video to show the process.  Just so everyone knows, I am not technically "professionally trained" ... but I do love cooking and want to get even more familiar/comfortable with it!

So... here goes... in the comments section leave your suggestions for:

1)  Protein - I am not limited to any type of products, just maybe not outrageously expensive stuff.  If I can't find a specific protein (like a specific fish) then I will find a comparable protein.

2) Carb - be it rice, potatoes, grains of any sort... you get the idea.

3) Vegetable - if I can find it I will try to cook it - again, if I can't find your suggestion... I will find the closest comparable item.

4) Random:  this is one of the fun things... suggest a spice, a fruit, creme fraiche, balsamic, salts, chocolates... have fun here!  Think of an ingredient that you maybe have seen, but don't know how to cook or know it is a challenge to cook.  I will find out how to use it and incorporate it into my meal!

Looking forward to keeping this going... and I appreciate the support from all of you!!!

Friday, January 11, 2013

Birthday Bloggin' ...

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.... uhm yeah. It's another year. :)

It's been a gentle day - nothing all that glamorous or anything.  As a matter of fact, my "big event" for the day has been going to the DMV to get my driver's license renewed.  I looked fabulous - this DL photo should be great! Fingers crossed - we shall see in 30 days!

I also decided this renewal period to go ahead with the decision to become an organ donor - no reason not to, really.  I know people who think that if you do this there is a risk that EMT folks and doctors won't fight to save your life -- I don't think that's true.  I've not confirmed it, but I just can't see that as being real.

So this year's BIRTHDAY celebration is low key... this year doesn't seem to be as "bells -n-  whistles" as previous years.  I've been in a bit of a funk lately and it seems to have spilled over into what I normally try to do to celebrate my personal new year.  I'm not trippin' about turning another year older... that's never been an issue.  It just doesn't feel like a particularly special day.  My friends and family have been spectacular about showering me with positive birthday blessings - and that is the best part of this so far!

I do have plans to go out tomorrow and play in my local community - breakfast and then off to see the movie, Les Miserables.  So my celebrations are slowly being spread out over a few weeks... maybe even over about a month once I get to schedule outings with all of my friends.

The other fun element this year is that my birthday falls the day just before the first playoff game for the Denver Broncos... so I am getting a little "colored up" for that tomorrow... I'll be wearing my "united in orange" gear - scarf/hat and my gorgeous new orange tote purse from BCBGeneration.

So, to all those who've sent me birthday wishes - THANK YOU... here's to another trip around the bright beautiful sun!

Thursday, January 03, 2013

I Haven't Forgotten How to Dance...

I used to dance - clubbing  all through the week and especially on the weekends.  I miss this... not really the club aspect, but the active dancing.  I've become a bit more conservative - it takes a lot to get me to loosen up these days... to just feel free to MOVE.

And, as my birthday is getting closer, I am starting to feel my "age" setting in on me. 

I want to break out of this frozen form I am settling into becoming... I know I am a beautiful person under this fear-based body armor of "padding"!  I want to get to know me again... to awaken that powerful goddess who had stepped up in 2005 and owned her power to manifest exactly what she wanted out of life!!  Or the goddess who had trained in 2001 to reignite the beautiful body - yeah, that's what I want to do again!

So, I'm not sure where or how... but I do see a gym or training in some manner coming up... I know I am blessed with my father's genetic signature of being able to trim off the padding with a wonderful metabolism... once it is ignited.  Motivation - that is what I have to find... what is my motivation?  And is it stronger than my fear of ... rejection, abandonment, betrayal, ... all of those fears that have been padding my exterior with "softness" to ward off feeling. 

I will have to open myself to really feeling again.

I guess this is a resolution... now that I think about it.  I have a resolution for 2013!!!

Now... to find that flint stone... to find that spark... to find that fire...